Inner City Swimmer

 O.K. yes, I know that title might be a little dramatic. But I'm sorry, currently the swimming world has been impacted in a very big way depending where you are in the world right now. For some, this can be down right depressing. So I'm telling it how it is. We don't have competitions going off around the country. We are lucky if we can get any pool time, as many pools are shut down. We miss our workout groups. Many teams have disbanded and we are not able to swim together as we once did. I've taken breaks before in my life. At one time I went over 10 years without competing. I forgot what I was missing, the break was so damn long. NEVER AGAIN. This year was suppose to be my come back year. Get all the weight off Jen, get back in the pool, show them that you still have it and rack up some top 10's if you can. Maybe we can make Nationals in Virginia. Thank GOD for outdoor public pools. As soon as they opened in June, I was there. Then, I found out about Rye Town Park...

I hate new years resolutions. They can come as tall orders. Most of them fail. I'm already starting to feel the pressure because there is so much to do. Breathe.... Baby Steps. A lot of what holds us back I think... the root cause, is fear of failure. If we don't try, well, we can't fail right? It's a win, win. Unfortunately, if you can't fail, you also reduce your chances of success. So, to succeed we need to learn to fail, to fail often and fail well. To fail well to me means failing with grace. Brushing yourself off and saying o.k. It's time to try again no matter how tough it is to start all over. If we don't keep trying, how can we succeed? It's been so long since I've been in shape, I'm beginning to doubt if it is possible. Can I stick with it? Will I get into shape again? Can I make another nationals? Do I want to go to nationals? Will I ever be fast again? Will the weight come off? Can I get addicted to exercise again as my docto...